It has been a rough week for some people close to me. And myself.
One of my closest friends from college lost her little boy last week. He only lived about a week. I had the honor of meeting the sweet little guy in the NICU before his mom and dad took him home. The funeral is today. Pretty sure I'll have a big red swollen nose before the day is over.
My patient died over the weekend. Was is expected? Yes. Did that make it any easier? No. The family loved their day shift nurse (they went way back), so she stayed as well until the little girl passed. In my five years of working at this childrens hospital I have never seen a child earn their angel wings while I was in the room. The reality of the things we had just witnessed and done for this child didn't hit me until I got in the car to go home (they usually send you home if a child dies on your shift). I bawled my eyes out the entire ride home. Then woke Rog up when I got home and he let me cry it out a bit longer.
Today I'm more at peace with all of the situations life has dealt these families; though, I could still cry at any moment if you caught me unprepared.
But this week has stressed how grateful I am for the gospel in my life. Life isn't fair sometimes. We all know this. My heart aches for my friends who are dealing with rough trials. I wish I could bring each of them some chocolate and let them rant and rave and cry. But I can't begin to describe how lucky I felt in each of these situations that I believed in heaven. And eternal families.
My patient's sister was being brought into the room so she could be there when her sister passed away. Her uncle was talking to her, I was behind them listening. He said "Do you remember what we told you? That '.......' will go to heaven tonight to be with Jesus?" This sweet little girl responded in tears "yes, she will be an angel".
I cried then and there listening to that sweet conversation. It was an honor and a privilege to be there to witness this innocent little girl earn her ticket to heaven that night. And I'm so very grateful for the Angels that watch over us and our loved ones during these rough times.